Yesterday and today have been pretty painful, but I don’t want to get ahead of myself. I wanted to record this so that I remember it and in case people are interested in the specifics of how everything went. Warning, I suppose, some of this is a bit graphic sort of? Although I don’t think it gets gory or anything.
My egg retrieval ended up being scheduled for Monday at 11:00 AM. I did my final injections on Saturday night at midnight, and then noon on Sunday. Those were the trigger shots (Suprefact, in my case). All those 5:30 AM mornings waking up to go to the clinic have done a number on me because staying up until midnight on Saturday felt SO LATE, haha. We watched two movies and I looked at the clock just – really, it’s only 10 pm? The downside of this was that I had to go and have bloodwork done on Sunday morning, and that’s a whole story by itself.
Basically, the fertility clinic gave me a requisition with a “STAT” sticker on it and said just go to this specific lab at 7:30 AM on Sunday morning, and they will see you right away because it’s a STAT situation. They needed to test my LH levels so that they could know what to do about the retrieval. I’m a little unclear on the details of that because our doctor explained it while I was still a bit high from IV pain meds. Anyway, I asked the nurses several times if they were sure about just going at 7:30. That particular lab is a zoo, and other times I’ve needed bloodwork there and can’t get an appointment, we’d go right when it opens to get a decent number. They said it would be fine.
So on Sunday, running in little sleep (after being up until midnight Saturday to give myself the trigger shot) we get to the lab and the guy at the desk is completely unmoved by the STAT sticker. He just goes, “Take a number.” I have number 34, they’re serving 17. I don’t know what my estrogen levels were at this point – higher than 17,700 – but to super hormonal, bloated and uncomfortable me it felt like the last straw. I ended up handing my requisition sheet to V and ducking out in the hallway to burst into tears. It just felt like The Worst Thing in the world, even though I know it wasn’t. When I came back, obviously having been crying, V managed to talk the guy at the desk into letting him speak to the team lead there. He explained to him how the test needed to be done at a specific time, and how if we’d known we would have come at opening but they’d told us that STAT meant both for collection and processing. He said the STAT was only for how quickly they’d get the results, not for the actual line-up. Long story short, he agreed to have them take me sooner, but the whole thing was just stressful and not what I needed at that point. V resolved it because he has superpowers when it comes to medical professionals, I guess, but I still hated it. I’m not really a “can I speak to the manager” or a line-jumping sort of person. I’m sure everybody in that waiting room thought I was a huge jerk. I hope they gave me the benefit of the doubt though. One thing I’ve really learned over the last few years is that you don’t know what anybody else is going through and so you shouldn’t assume or judge. I was relieved to go home, in any case. That was Sunday.
I spent the rest of Sunday getting increasingly more anxious as I thought about the egg retrieval the next day. The waiting was driving me bananas. I just wanted to get it over with. The best part of Sunday was the valium they’d given me to take at bedtime. I popped that sucker at around 10 PM and was sleeping in twenty minutes. We slept about nine hours which was nice after the previous night. Getting ready in the morning was easy because I wasn’t allowed to eat anything before the surgery, or to wear any makeup, so I just had a bit of ginger ale to settle my stomach and packed everything up for the retrieval.
We left the house at 10:00 and arrived at the clinic around 10:15, a little bit early (they’d told us to be there at 10:30) but the nurse came and took us in right away. We went to the section of the clinic I’d never been to, where the OR and recovery places are (it’s completely on the opposite side of the consultation and ultrasound/exam rooms). The first nurse we met was Donna and she was really nice, she took us over to the place that would be “mine,” which was basically an armchair with a locker for my clothes and purse. I got changed into a gown that mercifully had a back and side tie so that there was no butt flashing action happening.
The next part was all pretty routine, she took my height and weight and I sat in the chair waiting for the other nurse to start my IV. Her name was Amy and she was also really nice, she managed to get the IV in my hand on the first try and I was grateful for that. At this point we also got to meet Debbie, our embryologist. I’d been planning to ask the embryologist what video games they played to keep their reflexes sharp, but when Debbie came in she looked like a tough grandma and I don’t think she played any video games, haha. She explained what she’d be doing and that she’d discuss with us after the retrieval, too. After we’d been waiting awhile, it was already 11:15 and no sign of Dr. W who was doing my retrieval – he’d been held up at the big meeting all the doctors have every morning to decide the course of action for each patient. Amy decided to move me into the OR so that we’d be ready to go as soon as he arrived. I brought my phone and headphones with me – I’d had jazz music playing in just one earbud to try to chill out and to help distract me during the actual procedure.
The OR was…I’m not sure what to say about the OR, to me it was horrifying, but just because I was freaked out and scared of everything that was happening. The table design was smart, really, rather than having stirrups there’s these kind of padded sleeves that you put your legs into. Amy had me get on the table but not yet in the sleeves until the doctor arrived. To my left was a TV screen that she said would show what Debbie was doing as she looked for eggs from what Dr W retrieved. After a few minutes of chatting to Amy, Dr W came in quickly. Amy asked if he’d been paged and he said no, but he kept looking at the time and finally told them he would have to go because he was late for my egg retrieval. At this point Amy put the medication into my IV that would help with pain and also keep me calm. She said it might make me dizzy but I didn’t feel that way immediately at all.
This initial part was the scariest. You see, the way they reach your ovaries to get the eggs is to jab a needle through the wall of your vagina. I’d been told it was just a pinch on each side, and it actually wasn’t bad. Dr W told me to take a deep breath and hold it and then just that quickly it was done. I could feel him start stabbing and aspirating follicles from my left ovary. It wasn’t too bad initially, there were a few cramps and pinpricks of pain. The way the room is built I could see behind him a window where Debbie was sitting. She was going through the tubes finding eggs and she’d yell out when she found one. In what seemed like no time, to me, the doctor was saying he was finished with the left ovary. I was worried at this point because so far, they’d only found four eggs. I couldn’t imagine that 30 follicles on one ovary would only yield that many!
Dr W went to start on the right ovary and do the whole needle thing again, which was okay except that at this point things really started hurting more. I asked Amy if I could have more medication. She gave me some, and then Dr W said that he’d have to come at this ovary from another angle because the initial one wasn’t working. So a third stab, and this ovary was REALLY hurting. He apologized that he was having to press so hard on it to try and get the follicles out. They both asked me to try and relax my body, I wasn’t aware but every muscle I had was tense, even my fists were clenched. At some point the ear bud had fallen out of my ear, too, so I didn’t have my music anymore. Amy gave me another dose of the medication and then told Dr W she was going to get some Gravol to inject as well since I’d had a double dose of pain meds and would probably feel nauseous. Dr W said that she was being proactive, which I appreciated.
I asked him how things were going with this ovary because I just wanted this whole thing to be over with and at that point he said he was about halfway finished with it. I heard him say something about a “baker’s dozen” and in my drug-induced haze I said in dismay, “Only twelve?” and he says, “No, a baker’s dozen is thirteen,” haha. Amy hastened to assure me that Debbie still had six tubes to go through, though. Finally, mercifully, he was finished. The two of them helped me down and into a wheelchair, I was pretty dizzy and woozy. They wheeled me out to the recovery room where V was waiting for me. I was so glad to see him. The timing of everything that needed doing meant he only got back two minutes before we were finished anyway. He was bummed out that he didn’t get to see the screen with the eggs on it or anything.
This next part is pretty boring. I just sat with a blanket and heating pad while they monitored my blood pressure and gave me a bit of ginger ale and some digestive biscuits to nibble at. After awhile, Debbie came to see us and tell us about the eggs she had found. The final count at this point was 19 eggs from the 60 follicles. Of these, Debbie said 14 looked mature to her and the others were a bit small. She explained that it could be difficult to assess maturity at this stage but that based on size that’s what she figured. They’d keep the eggs safe overnight and see how many would fertilize.
After Debbie left, my friend Tara from Andrology (she’d been taking my blood all week) came to find us and see how I was doing, which was really nice. I liked her and I’m sorry I won’t be seeing her again, although I’m not sorry I won’t have to be at the clinic every morning anymore! We told her how it went and also talked about the debacle at the lab. She said the STAT sticker (she used to work at lab services) is SUPPOSED to mean STAT for both collection and processing, but that the people who work there aren’t often good at knowing things. Anyway, it was nice to see her. V went over to the pharmacy and filled my prescription for Tylenol 3. Dr W went by and came to talk to us, he said that based on the pain I’d had that I should take two Tylenol 3s every four hours and don’t wait until I feel pain. I guess when they have to remove 60 follicles they know you’re going to be hurting later! The last thing I had to do before we left was go and pee – if you aren’t able to pee they can’t let you go because the needle might have nicked your bladder. I didn’t have any trouble with that and so we were free to leave, me a little unsteadily but leaning on V.
It’s hard to believe that all happened just yesterday. We got home and I went upstairs and went to sleep immediately. They’d given me regular Tylenol at the clinic so I had to wait to take any more. When I woke up I could feel immediately that all the medication had worn off. I couldn’t get out of bed by myself, it hurt so badly, and I ended up messaging V so that he could help me stumble and wince my way to the bathroom. I remembered that they’d had a heating pad on my stomach at the clinic that seemed to help a lot but we don’t own an electric heating pad. We made do with a hot water bottle and V called my parents to see if my stepdad could bring a heating pad on his way home. He stopped at the drugstore and brought one. I was really struggling trying to sit up in bed, and lying down hurt worse, so at that point I moved into the big reclining chair in the living room. The heating pad was such a huge relief when he dropped it off, it really helped a lot with that initial pain. I can’t even imagine how much pain I would’ve been in without the Tylenol 3. I kept taking them every four hours and mainlining Gatorade which is supposed to help with preventing OHSS symptoms. Still, when the Tylenol wore off last night I woke up and knew right away, and had trouble getting out of bed again.
I’m really bloated and still can’t move around without a lot of pain, I can sort of gingerly move across the house but I feel best if I stay in a reclining chair with the heating pad. I look like I’m pregnant but that’s just Angry Ovaries (talk about adding insult to injury). Needless to say, I don’t know if I’m just a wuss or this is worse because of my many follicles, but I was unprepared for just how rough the recovery would be. I thought I’d be able to get some work done today – definitely NOT happening. I’ve been mostly reading and watching some TV. My appetite is fine. I can’t tell if Gatorade is helping with the bloat, I guess these are mild OHSS symptoms but I don’t seem to have any of the really major ones and hopefully it’ll stay that way. I’m actually glad at this point that the plan was a freeze all. I feel certain that if I’d tried to insist on a fresh transfer that I’d get severe OHSS for sure. I also can’t even imagine potentially being pregnant right after all this. I’m glad I will have a few months to recover properly before we attempt any frozen embryo transfers (FET).
Finally, the last important news is that the embryologist called us this morning (not Debbie, a different one) and told us that of the fourteen mature looking eggs, eleven had fertilized and they had frozen all of those. He said this was good, and it’s a fertilization rate of about 80% which is higher than expected, the average being 70%. I hope that bodes well for the quality of the embryos when they are eventually thawed. I have to admit that thinking some of them might not keep developing properly, or be damaged when thawed is doing my head in a bit. I know I should just be happy that we have them, these potential eleven chances, but I also know that some loss happens at each stage. I just hope there are enough for us to use and hopefully get pregnant. Now that we’ve been through this entire process, I’m not entirely sure I could do it all to my body again. It’s been, for lack of a better world, grueling – and the recovery isn’t over yet. I hope I’ll bounce back quickly but right now that’s not looking like it will be the case! But it’s just early days, so maybe tomorrow I’ll feel better. Wednesday is a day off (Remembrance Day) so V will be with me and he’s prepared to take Thursday off as well but I hope he won’t have to. I already feel bad about him having to work from home the end of last week because I was feeling so rotten, and now he’s missing work again at this end, too.
V has been a star, really – I’m so grateful that he is my partner in all of this. He’s been uncomplaining about having to fetch everything for me, asking if I need anything, coming over to help me up out of my chair and holding my arms to help me sit down again. He’s been doing everything and never said a peep. I’m just glad for him. I think any lady should be so lucky to have a husband like him throughout a process like this! I’ve also had lovely friends offering to help with food, dropping off chocolates for us, asking how I’m doing. My parents have also been great, they brought us some stuff some Costco and then the heating pad. My Mom has been giving me muffins all week. Everything seemed to happen so quickly once the stims started, it’s hard to believe that it wasn’t even two weeks ago.
I am grateful that my retrieval happened when it did. I heard the nurses talking while I was recovering, and they said there are TEN retrievals happening on Wednesday. They’ll have to start in the early morning and some ladies won’t have their retrieval until late afternoon. They are going to be running flat out to deal with all of those retrievals. But when the eggs are ready, they’re ready and there’s nothing you can do about it! Now I just have to spend a few months letting my body recover (I’m probably going to be bloated for a few weeks, the nurse says) and prepare for the eventuality of a FET and hopefully subsequent pregnancy. It’s going to be nice to have the holidays without any fertility treatment stuff, just taking it easy and knowing that 2016 right now contains eleven tiny pieces of hard-won hope.